Botanic after class today for site visiting. Mad hot there i could die with my fever and cramps inside. The mosquitoes bites were irritating, i wish i wore long pants at that time. We left after taking 3 site photos and took a bus down to orchard. Had some walk and dinner before we left home. What a tiring day, i wish i didn't step out my house a single bit, been feeling so weak in school after taking the medicine.

Maybe i was wrong, but i am fine. Its time to dump every single useless thing that is troubling me in this world. Someone used to say that letting go is the solution to finding back your own freedom, own happiness. Since thousands could do it, why not us who left with a broken heart? I mean i should have known better isn't it, i'm too dumb for carrying hopes that easily, thinking things really will change. But i was just deceiving myself. But i'm fine, i need to believe my fate, fate of losing, fate of gaining, fate of meeting or even fate of dying when the times comes. Just everything will come when the time is right, i shouldn't hope nor search, just let things take its course right? I will do fine, just let me sleep over it for tonight. I need sleep badly ...
Maybe being where i am now will make me happier, maybe just all this is enough, just knowing some friends who cares, some who don't and i can't be bothered, some who is too precious to lose, some that brings smile as long as we are together, some that could just easily make me forget. Im really fine, im not tearing at all. I just got cleared that its just like this. Let go. I should really kick habit of taking in words too seriously when they have no meaning at all. I need to wake up like what my friend say! And i mean it when i say i am happy as long as you are, with your partner. :)