I am tired of breathing, feel that my life is pretty wasted. Getting a year older in another 3days and it makes me think back of what i have all these years. There are so many silly acts i use to do to cause my parents to be worried and sad over, so much tears drop for the wrong person, so much money spend on the wrong things. Feels so wasted. Kinda do not have mood or am not excited at all to turn 19, feel like 18 has not been long and good enough to move out of. But i do hope this week still past fast, i want to celebrate cny with my family, relatives and friends. Got to get my submissions done up first, feeling so damn tired :/